I remember this post some time ago, in the infp subreddit, by the way I think both types share similarities and would like yo know about your experience cause I'm feeling something strange towards a new friend and I want to know if this is one of those non sexual crushes or whatsoever:
24, female. I have always considered myself straight, felt physical attraction towards guys, wanted to have romantic relationships only with men, have a boyfriend right now, etc.
There's this coworker at new job. When I first met her I thought she was quite geekish, but later I started seeing innocence and goodness in her, appreciating her girlnextdoorness (if that even exists). Now I got to know her a little bit more I'm overwhelmed by her sweetness. She comes to my mind during the day and I long to know everything about her. Sharing time with her makes me happy and gives me a warm feeling because of her cuteness, I want her to think I'm a good person who is worth being considered a friend. I could talk about this one girl for hours. I really appreciate when she is nice and friendly to me.
I feel some sort of fascination with her as if she was one of the female protagonists of the novels I write.
But I don't want to have any more than friendship in a dating sense (she has a boyfriend too, and I find it so cute rather than feeling jealous. I want to befriend her and know everything about ver love life and the men she likes). Neither I want to kiss her (To me the idea is just laughable and absurd). I don't want her to be sexually attracted to me.
Yet maybe I wouldn't mind a little bit of touch without it getting too close (maybe patting her back or a sisterly hug, not holding hands or very long cuddling).
All this feelings I get are really different to the ones I get when I like a guy (find him hot, want him to notice me and get jealous of the girls that actually get him). I don't feel she is hot. I don't even think she is particularly attractive. I just find her lovable I don't know why.
Is this just friendship feeling that comes in a strong way?
I've never felt this for a friend: with the rest of girls it is like: hey, you're fun to be with, let's get along. With her it's: You're so adorable it hurts…
I don't know if this is an infp/intp/personality thing. I also tend to be really obsessive and over-analyzing of things (which may also be an infp thing… Are there more obsessers here?? Hahaha). I suffered HOCD (you can google about it) ten years ago, when I was a stupid teen who didn't know herself and I then noticed I got really drawn to female characaters in my stories. That hit my mind in a really hard way and suffered great distress. My fear if being gay and checking my feelings in each freaking moment was everything I could thing about. Then I grew out of it and always wanted to have a boyfriend/be attractive to hot guys/liked men, etc. But it's funny because I don't tend to obsess over the guys I liked (I mean, I went crazy about finding a boyfriend and Hot guys in general but not about any specific guy, just physically attracted)
I don't know if this sounds of just being contemplative and appreciating of other people or whether I might be bisexual.
TL;DR: Always been straight. I find this new friend ridiculously cute and sweet and I'm going through typical crush excitement/warm feeling/obsession about her. But I don't feel like dating her nor making out. Very confused about this.